Chery,

Thank you for sharing this heartfelt post.  As we reflect on loss in our lives, we realize that it is when we are able to better understand our grief that healing begins.  Our grief is a window into the value in another's life.  We grieve because there is something in the person we will miss.  This is their legacy. You are already there, pondering the lessons learned and exploring your grief.  Your grief reminds us all of important lessons and gives hope that in our season of loss, we may still find strength.

My sympathies to you and your family.

Deb