Mary, you're a rare breed. We need more leaders like you. What I love most about your post is that you looked at yourself and a) admitted your actions weren't just poor leadership, they were unacceptable on a personal level. b) you used the experience to know you didn't want to become that kind of person or leader. No blaming. Admitting error is the first step to correction. You can't repair something if you don't recognize it as broken.